I know it sounds corny when people say "I can't believe it's already here!" or "How did time go by so fast?!" But I cant help but think and feel a combination of these (and everything) else right now. Two full days await me here in Denver before I head out to Philly for PC staging and it's unbelievable to try and wrap my brain around it. I'm not sure when it all will hit me, but I can rest assured I will have tissues or a sleeve to blow my nose into.
Last minute packing has gotten me a bit overwhelmed. But thank goodness my mother had been on me day after day for weeks to buy all the things I need/want, try packing my bags, testing out the solar charger, and more. Without her push, I'd probably be sitting here pulling my hair out and going nuts. She is so much more mentally organized that I am and I've so appreciated her help. Her help allowed me to have most of my things ready two weeks before my departure (see my previous post...this was mentally confusing!) which allowed me to visit both of my grandmothers on the west coast, a wonderful close to my time in the states. If you ever have a chance to meet my mother, consider yourself lucky.
I have been officially presented the "Hang on! Life is an adventure!" card for these next days, weeks, months, and years. I am, of course, in control of my attitude towards my time as well as volunteering while in Malawi. Struggles are inevitable, and I hope I have the strength and courage to continue to see the positive that will come out of every situation. Through my travels this fall/winter I discovered something extremely enlightening, and encouraging in the same breath: when things are getting tough and you think you can't push yourself any further...keep pushing, because the biggest reward is right over the hill. I've found right when I feel like giving up, if I try just a bit harder then I am handsomely rewarded. Life's greatest rewards do not come without great struggles. Bring it on, universe!
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
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You have a fantastic attitude. I'm impressed by your combination of courageous independence and openness to the support of others. People who have great relationships with their mothers always strike me as so full of confidence... an important reminder how much brighter the planet's future could be if every child had a chance for supportive nurturing. It's also a reminder that if we don't want to be needy, we should learn how to ask for help. And you clearly understand the value of paying it forward.
ReplyDeleteI love what you said about pushing when you think you can't push any further. I've heard it said that if you do what you love, you'll never work a day in your life. Maybe that's so for some people, but I've always found it to be a load of manure. Doing what I love most has often required the hardest work of all, and not every moment is charmed. Yet hard work can be happy work. And the path to one's true self is the one along which the rewards are greatest.
Enjoy the journey!